I decided to sit down and do something that I was avoiding for far too long. I sat down and went through my tenor through the program. When I assembled all the scattered e-mails where I was writing to Max about my experiences in the EAs I made a realization that made me understand the meaning of what Max was trying to teach me. This process I got myself into was not a trip which had a shiny, "wow" moment of epiphany as its destination. It was actually a trip that started and it had no destination. It was a voyage of which the purpose was to become a voyager. It was a trip with the purpose of starting to perceive life, your beliefs, yourself as versatile experiences that can swing on the spiral of the unknown and grow as long as you experience. It was a change of perception, of an angle of view. From this course I learned not to do things for the "wow" moments because this mathematically leads to disappointment. I learned to perceive the moments I live as holy not because they are "wow" moments of happiness but because they are moments of being. And being is holy. Being is enough. You don't have to be anything else than what you are to be content with life. You just have to be what you are independently of your targets or your dreams. Dreams and targets are of course good but they should not be the prerequisite of happiness or the drive for achieving. Happiness is the aftereffect of acceptance of yourself and the drive for achieving is the aftereffect of a genuine need to create and to give birth and life to something.

And most important of all. During this course I understood how surrendered I was to cynicism. This is relevant to the majority of Western people at least. We grow up in a society whose cultural genetics bear the principles of the Enlightenment which are revolving around reason and science. However, these principles became the object of an obsession and now we grow up being proud of turning down and mocking the spiritual and the divine. I was like that, reducing everything to probabilities, math and reason. And that made me unhappy because I was choosing to see my instances of happiness as fleeting luck, my instances of success as a product of favourable circumstances, myself as a product of a pile of random biomes and random influences. Nothing special, no divine plan behind it, no sense of target. And all the nice moments were alienated from me because obsession with reason and control made me unable to fathom any experience. It numbed my senses and it numbed my feelings. Human life is how you choose to see it. You may choose to see the universe as a cold and Darwinistic place that was born out of randomness and is governed by the laws of randomness, consequently seeing your life as a coincidental occurrence that can actually go on until the end without finding any sense of purpose or you can choose to believe that you are connected with the universe just because you are a part of it and that everything you are and you will become is your journey in connecting with the cosmic energy. Your gateaway to that divine energy is your intuition. And the more you connect with it the more sense of "purpose" you may find. Living a human life without a spiritual compass feels like trying to find light in a world of darkness by circling around the same spot.”

-- Christos, Greece